Dear S,
it’s been a while. somehow this website always brings me back and idrk why am i writing this it’s not like youre ever going to see it but i think thats what makes me comfortable to as if you weren’t already on almost every page of my journal
every part of me once ached for you btw and in some quiet way maybe it still does. i couldn't allow myself to let someone in i told myself it was because i was busy focusing on my studies and work but deep down i’ve always known the truth that it was you i just didn’t want to face it
and i’ve changed kinda im not as emotional anymore and things don't shake me the way they used to but the one thing that hasnt changed is how i carry you in my heart after all this time, its just different now its softer and quieter like how you're always somewhere in the back of my mind and how sometimes your smile passes through my mind but it doesn’t consume me anymore and i think that means i just learned how to live with it. but i still notice the small things like hearing your name or the way my eyes linger a second longer when i pass by your neighborhood but i think that’s okay
ill forever carry you within me and wherever life has taken you, i hope it’s been kind to you.
-idk it doesn’t even matter