I'm lost, and it hurts so bad. I never thought a relationship could feel like this. You've changed, and it feels like we're not the same. I tried to make it work, gave it my all, and loved you with everything. But love shouldn't be this painful.
I keep asking myself, why can't I let you go? Why am I stuck? Is it because of the memories? The way you made me feel.
I thought we're going to ended up for the rest of our lives. How long can I pretend it doesn't hurt when it really does? I wake up every day thinking about what we had. I regret not fighting for us, thinking I'd be respecting you by letting go. I miss you, your touch, our talks... I miss you.
how long I am going to pretend that it doesn't hurt anymore, when the truth is it never stop aching? I wake up everyday carrying the weight of what we had. I regret just agreeing to your decision, I didn't fight for us—because I thought if I beg you would misunderstand it, like I don't respect your decision. I miss your presence, the touch of your skin - the late night talks or late night calls. I miss you in a quiet, ordinary ways.
I know we ended on bad terms because I got overwhelm, yk the rest. I'm sorry, for spreading it. I'm genuinely sorry for that, I hope u don't bad mouth me anymore, cause it makes my heart acheshahaha. I hope we can rebuild our friendship cause it's so awkward seeing u everyday, but I guess I will see u everyday like it use to cause you will be transferring?hahaPleasedont.
Seeing my closest friend to give u a letter and flower. But I can't express my feelings cause it would hurt her. I don't have a choice but too be supportive to her, it makes my heart aches. I'm so thankful that God let us meet for a short period of time.
Thank you for being proud of me cause I already achieve the award:). Thank you for congratulating me and for being my support system since second quarter, I really appreciate it. Even though we aren't together anymore. Some of our memories keep replaying on my mind. It's just I can't move on from you, because your my first:) the first person nga kin pakilala ko kay mama.
I have so many reason why I can't move on. Your the first person who gave me an stuff toy, and that stuff toy reminds me of you:/. Hugging it feels like hugging you, again:). I miss being your best friend, I miss our closeness a lot:).
Its like our break up doesn't matter to you or you just keep your feelings in private. But I heard that you cried cause we broken up. Sorry for showing my avoidant side to you sng December, I just can't help it. Everytime I hear your name my hearts aches, but at the same time gakilig ko, I don't ngaa ga kilig pko. I keep distracting my self, but all of those distraction are useless, because I still ended up yearning for you:/.
I know that you will never comeback to me, but this stupid heart still hope for you to comeback. I hope someday that this stupid heart will stop hoping and waiting for you. Everytime I achieve something, I misses you so bad.