Dear Baobei,
It's been months since I last heard from you. I'm a piece of shit, I know. But have you considered hearing my side of the story? I have loved you... And no words can explain how much my love for you overflows. What did your friends have to say? I'm bad, am I? Have you really never noticed how they treated me? Yes, they were kind in some ways, but actually pushing you to girls or the ones you used to like or the ones who liked you, is that not painful to witness? How do you just laugh and admit to every single thing? I might have blocked you out of anger, and I can't believe I begged, looking at it now. We were both not ready for it. I noticed everything, the reposts. the silent yearning for someone...who is not me. I do not wish you ill, but I wish you well. May your mom live happily and healthily. I've caused you pain, I know. But you did the same without noticing. I hate how I miss you, but what can I do? It's the only thing I do. In fact, I hate that I yearn for you. despite this. I'm still rooting for your success; this might not be the last letter. But one thing I know for sure. We will never cross paths if you swear, and it breaks me a little; I hate it.
loving you -d.c