I know you will probably never read this and you would never guess that I wrote it and I know you’re someone who no longer belongs to me and I have become someone who no longer matters to you even if I write about you. I know you are not mine but do you know how hard it is to ignore how much I miss you and how hard it is to accept days that exist without you in them. Sometimes I stare at the ceiling of my room and your memory quietly finds its way back to me and i wonder if you were really a part of my life, how did you enter it and leave it so quickly was everything between us real or did I only imagine it? i always wonder what you’re doing now who do you talk to the most and who listens to you instead of me I kept wondering about your heart does it ever miss me do you ever think of me the way I think of you or has the distance erased my name from your memory.
I remember that one of my biggest fears was forgetting the sound of your voice but I never could since not a single day passed without hearing it somewhere in the back of my mind. I miss your smile I miss how excited you looked when you saw me I miss your long hugs and your many kisses and the way we used to talk about everything I miss when you would go home and tell me about our day and how you felt when you saw me and how you felt when you held me
And even after all this time that has passed without you not a single day has gone by where you did not cross my mind at least once.