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Happy New Year, Reach. I’m sorry if I used n.y as an excuse to bother you, I know that no matter how many times I reach out you will not answer, but maybe this will be the last time I’ll do it hjsjwhsh who knows, diba?
From the bottom of my heart, I want to apologize sa mga pagkukulang ko back then. And I also want to apologize dahil nandito pa rin ako, I’m sorry because I can’t treat you like stranger and pretend that you are a stranger in my eyes when in fact you are once my everything. I’m thankful that I met you and The Lord has given you to me, even if only for a short time. And also, I appreciate all the efforts, sincerity, and love you gave back then. I will surely treasure it all until I grow old.
Maybe the destiny let our paths crossed not to be meant for each other, but to teach each other some lessons. Pero bat ganon? I already seen my future with you hwhsha ang daya talaga ng panahon. Kung hindi siguro tayo maagang pinagtagpo ng tadhana tayo ang end game, noh? Or maybe paths will cross again when the timing is right, who knows? Minsan naiisip ko, may regrets kayang nabuo sa puso mo na nakilala mo ako?
Alam mo, hindi kita namimiss tuwing madaling araw. Namimiss kita tuwing pagod ako, may masaya akong kwento, at lalo na kapag mag-isa ako. Dati kasi nandito ka eh hsjahsha, payapa ang loob ko kasi nandyan ka. Hinihiling ko dati na sana hindi nalang nagbakasyon, kasi dahil don nagkagulo-gulo lahat, nawalan ng oras, nawalan ng efforts, nawalan ng sparks, nawala ka. I want to be honest with you, marami akong naging tampo sayo dati kasi parang nawalan ako ng pwesto dyan sa puso mo, hindi ko alam pero parang nakalimutan mong nageexist ako. Pero kahit na ganon, I never stopped loving you, I just stopped trying, napapagod na rin kasi ako that time, alam ni joycee yan hahaha. Kahit na ganon na yung nangyayari may hopes pa rin sakin na babalik din tayo sa dati kasi phase lang yung nangyari na yon, pero dumating yung araw, iniwan mo nako. 😕 I was willing to give up anything for u just to keep u dawg jhjwshaha. Pero wala eh, we’re too young. Magkaiba pa tayo ng religion kaya mas lalong naging complicated, pero gets ko namang kailangan para rin sa sarili mo. Sorry kung ngayon ko lang to nasabi, nawalan kasi ako ng palag noon haha.
I may be the worst and most desperate person you’ve ever met, but I really want to become the person you want. But I need to move forward in order for me to find the peace that I want, ayoko rin mapagiwanan ng panahon. 🙃
I hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself lately. I hope whatever broke you last year will lead to something better and kinder this year. Best of luck sa lahat ng journey na tatahakin ng buhay mo, alam kong kakayanin mo lahat yon. Mas lumakas kapa sana sa basketball kasi alam kong yon ang goal mo, always remember that I will support you from afar and I will always be the proudest. Again, Happy New Year and May God Bless you always : )