Dear Solenn.
I loved you, I know that. But I know that if we both stayed, we would hurt each other. I'm still greatful for the moments and memories we've shared, but I won't deny that I still miss you, and I think I'll forever yearn for you. Every eye contact, every stories of mine in social media you viewed, and every interaction still has a meaning for me. It was for the better, but I wish that it didn't end that way.
I fucked up, and I lost you. I thought that I would be okay without you, but the way you look at me just drowns me. You look at me the way you looked at me when we were still inlove with each other. I keep myself busy because I have no other choice but to distract myself, but no matter how hard I try, I still think about you. I'm stuck on you, and your like a disease that I can't get rid of. A disease that I love genuinely and deeply.
When I wake up I expect for your message telling me to come back, but nothing. I keep expecting and waiting for nothing, and that's my problem. It physically hurts me that I can't tell you that I still miss you, and I still love you. I will respect your decision, but if you want to come back, I'm still here. I would run back to you with just one message.
I still love you, and your eyes are still beautiful. I can't say that to you anymore, but your mesmerizing eyes are always stuck on my mind.