Dear Ren.
Hi i just want you to let you know that i miss you. Even tho we didn't ended up together, but it feels like we've been together. The affection you showed me, the words you told me when i as on my lowest point, everything you told me. I will always remember your comforting advice. I miss everything about you. If only i have the urge to tell you my unsaid thought it will take us years for me to tell you all about it. I dont understand why im feeling this, it feels like the universe has set us both but society doesn't want us to be together. i never expected seeing myself in this kind of situation. When the sudden ghost happend, everything shattered-the future i saw into us, i feel dissapointed. If only you knew how much it hurted me, i lost myself for a while i became so distant, i was out of my mind- thourght the point that i wanted to kill myself. Looking back to myself that time i felt pity. You dont know how much damage you've done to me.. How can you sleep peacefully not knowing that im here still thinking about you, if only you knew... At least i got a chance to rant this unsaid thought about you. I dont know if i can move on or heal myself this time. I will try to distance myself away from you to prevent myself falling from you again.. Even we didn't end up together i will always love you....
I love you my Renssil <3