My Dearest mymy
i never regretted loving you. out of all the choices i've made in my life, choosing you was the bravest and most beautiful. you came into my world without warning, changed everything and then left, leaving a space that has never really been filled.
i remember how you used to talk about your dreams, with your voice so excited to tell it. i loved watching you in those moments. i loved hearing your plans, even the ones that sounded impossible. i wanted so badly to see you get there, to see you living the life you pictured so vividly. even though i'm no longer by your side, i still want you to reach those dreams.
i thought i would walk with you every step of the way, but somewhere along the road, i had to stop. not because i wanted to, but because life left me no choice. letting you go didn't mean i stopped caring. i still want you to succeed. i still want you to find what you've been searching for, even if i can't be part of that story anymore.
there's a part of me that breaks every time i realize i won't hear your voice every day again. no more short messages telling me you've gotten home safely. no more long late-night talks that kept us awake until the morning. the quiet feels strange but i've learned to live with it. i've learned how to miss you without expecting to ever hold you again.
i've wondered if you feel the same emptiness i do. or maybe i was just someone easy to leave behind. i'll never know the answer and maybe i don't need to. instead, i choose to believe you're doing fine without me.
if there's someone new standing beside you now, i hope they see you the way i once did. as someone extraordinary, with both strengths and flaws that make you human. i hope they take better care of you than i did, that they make you laugh until you forget the world, that they become the safe place you can always return to.
i won't lie, imagining that still hurts. but pain is the price of loving without holding on.loving you taught me that sometimes the only way to truly care for someone is to let them go toward the life that makes them feel whole.
even now, i still send my prayers for you. silent ones you'll never hear. i pray that you find strength when the world feels heavy.i pray that you always have a reason to get out of bed in the morning. i pray that you never lose faith in yourself.
i know there will be days when i'll want to reach out. to ask how you're doing, to make sure you're still smiling like you used to. but i stop myself because i know my place isn't next to you anymore. i'm just an observer from a distance, hoping life is kind to you.
if one day we cross paths again, i don't know what will happen. maybe we'll exchange a quick smile and keep walking. maybe we'll pretend we don't know each other or maybe, we'll talk for a while, recalling the past with a strange mix of warmth and bitterness.
until that day comes, if it ever does, i'll keep moving forward with the memory of you kept deep inside me. not to bring it back to life but to protect it as a reminder that once in my life, i loved someone with everything i had, and that person was you.
so please, take care of yourself out there. i'm no longer here to remind you but i trust you can do it on your own. i believe you're strong enough, capable enough, to reach every dream you once told me about.
even if life takes you somewhere completely different from what we imagined, i hope you still find happiness there. happiness that may no longer include me, but still, i'll wish for it with all my heart because even though i'm no longer a part of your days, my love will always be a quiet prayer that follows you everywhere.
I will always honestly truly completely love you. See you next time my love.