Dear TJ,
It's been 5 years since everything went down, but the memories of your selfishness still sits. I still find myself hurt remembering the moment I realised you were cheating on me. And you know what, cheating is one thing, but doing it with your ex-boyfriend? That's a whole new level of disrespect. And the kicker was finding out I contracted an STD because of your actions. That's when the truth finally hit me, you were hiding something, and I had to find out the hard way.
To be honest, if I hadn't gotten tested and found out about the STD, I might still be in the dark about your cheating. That thought alone is what hurts the most, that I had to get sick and potentially almost die to find out my boyfriend was lying to me. It's a harsh reality to swallow. But Ive been medicated and healed both from the illness you caused AND the illness you were.
What I think it probably the most funniest part of it all was seeing you beg for us to get back together after everything went down. You thought I'd forgive and forget, take you back with open arms? You really didn't know me at all. All those times you told me you could find someone better, I guess you were right, you did find someone better, your ex-boyfriend. All pretty in his little tux packing a hidden gift, that you just happened to pass along to me…I just hope you found out about the STD too…because boyyy if you hadn't, I have news for you.
But in the end, your actions were a wake-up call for me. I realized my own worth and what I deserve in a relationship. I deserve someone who respects me, values me, and prioritizes my health and well-being. Not someone who puts me at risk and lies to my face.
You may have thought you'd broken me, but you actually set me free. I'm done with the toxicity, and I'm moving on. It's taken me 5 years to process everything, but I'm finally in a good place. Don't bother reaching out; I'm good. Better than good, actually. I'm finally free to find someone who truly deserves me - someone who'll love and respect me for who I am, as a gay man.
Take care,
Your biggest loss